11/23/19 Bad People, Bad Life Decisions

I reckon I have made a bait (an archaic Southern expression I am still fond of meaning a whole lot) of bad life decisions. Me and a lot of other people have had the same problem. To some, the bad life decision I have made is to continue living in the rural area that I…

10/13/19 So Many Changes

The past ten months have seen more changes in my life than any other period. I daresay few of the changes have been good. It has not been a pleasant time. In November 2018 my daughter’s husband, for some unfathomable reason, took his own life. My beloved stepfather passed away from pancreatic cancer in December,…

6/22/19 I Don’t Know

“I don’t know,” said Hemocastle as to the diagnosis of Myelo’s pain and other symptoms. After several CT scans and Ultrasounds, Surgeon Two Lips declared, “There are several things that I know that are not wrong with him, but I don’t know what is,” adding, “But I see nothing that requires surgery.” This was a…

4/23/19 The Part in Front of You

Just look at the part in front of you; the whole is overwhelming. That’s what I repeatedly tell myself, overwhelmed as I am. I survey the twelve acres of publicly accessible Timberview Lodge property, amid the hundreds of acres not observable from here: The roofless Guest House, the damaged Main Lodge, the holes in the…

2/1/19 Logic Thwarts Medical Experts, or Not

Several times, I have had doctors ask me, “Do you have any medical training?” Formerly, I was asked it in the manner of a rebuke, as if physicians were implying that it was not possible for me to have any valid opinion about the rabbit hole I could see them going down, that it was…

11/15/18 Ruxolitinib Moves On Without Me

I started the BATCC clinical trial on ruxolitinib on June 17, 2016. It was a two year trial designed test the effectiveness of ruxolitinib on alleviating the symptoms of CLL (fatigue, bone pain, joint pain, and others) by targeting cells that carried the JAK-7 enzyme, which produces inflammation. Inflammation is the source of many diseases…