Fatigue is part of CLL. So is bone pain. So is a compromised immune system, night sweats, and a host of other maladies, some of which can be chalked up to CLL, and some simply exacerbated by being closer to sixty than to fifty. I have been too tired for too long, and had taken a hiatus from playing music. Before last night, my last musical performance was in May of 2014. Add the tiredness to a right elbow dislocated in August at the stadium on the Ole Miss campus in preparation for the first football game, trying to do something much younger men were having trouble doing, with me planning on showing them how it should be done, and music was just not in my plans. It is hard to play an instrument when you right arm pains you more than you can imagine.
Last night, my daughter, Piper, and I returned to the stage of Mississippi’s long-running show THE SUCARNOCHEE REVUE, held at the historic Temple Theatre in downtown Meridian, Mississippi, I cannot adequately describe the pleasure of performing with my daughter, especially in a place with as much soul and mojo as the Temple Theatre.
There is life before CLL, there is life after CLL, and there is life WITH CLL. We have to get on with it. As tired as I was, the moment I stepped on stage, the tiredness left me, and the power and the presence of the stage and the audience, and the performance I knew we would deliver and they deserved was upon me. That is not to say that I didn’t run out of steam as soon as it was over, for I did seem to develop a case of low boiler pressure. my sails flapping about in becalmed seas, or running in molasses, as it were. This morning, I am still pretty tired. If it takes me two days to recover from a four song performance, it’ll likely take me the best part of a week to recover from a three-hour show. So be it. I get to choose how to spend my precious energy, and not sorta wasting my precious time (Thanks, Bob!).
Playing music and performing is a part of my life that is hard to deny, and the pleasure of a superb duet with my daughter is beyond description. It’ll likely take me two days to recover, but it was worth it.
I perform a lot of my own songs, but have been powerfully influenced and moved by the great Bob Dylan, Last night was our tribute to him. Thanks, Bob, for a lifetime of giving us your art that speaks to so many of us in such a powerful way,
Enjoy the videos, if you are of a mind.
CLL interferes with my life, but it does not drive it right now. Things may not always be that way. In the meantime, I will drive myself beyond fatigue for the joy of music.
©2015 Mississippi Chris Sharp